Tri not to Get Lost
Two years after losing my husband, I found myself in the worst physical shape of my life. Frustrated with where I was, I asked a few brave friends to join…
On turning 49
Even though the grief feels unbearable on most days, I also know I get to be here. I get to turn 49. I get to see our boys grow up here on earth. I get to cry. I get to laugh. I get to watch stupid tv shows. I get sunrises and sunsets. I get to swim in the ocean and walk on the beach. I get to hug our kids.
Long Live
I am suddenly a huge Swiftie1. They tell you that your identity will change after loss, but I wasn't anticipating how much my musical tastes would change. Her most recent…
Facing Sorrow
When you look into the face of sorrow, it's as if you're staring into a blinding light. Facing this sorrow head on is the most excruciating thing one can do.…
What’s In a Dream?
It feels like a dream, our life before. A dream of a beautiful life we built together. I had no idea how much so those small moments would matter now.
Still You Rise
I read somewhere that when you lose someone close to you, you do not just lose them one time, you lose them over and over again.
Grateful for You
January 20, 2023 Dear Kevin, Your birthday has always been the perfect conclusion to our season of holiday craziness. We'd go from Thanksgiving to Christmas, to Miles' birthday, your Mom's…
If I Could Turn Back Time
Dear Kev, I try not to live in the land of regret but boy what I would give to turn back time. It's been six months since you left us.…
If we couldn’t laugh we would all go insane. – Jimmy Buffett
There have been so many ridiculous, laugh-out-loud things that have happened since Kevin died. I know Kevin is laughing with us, so feel it's okay to share the ridiculousness. We…
Everything is “fine” or is it?
I had a few conversations this week about this idea that the boys and I often seem "fine". When in reality, we are not fine. An administrator from my son's…